It occurred to me that some of you saw my post last Tuesday (which has since been taken down). For those of you who did, and then reached out expressing concern, thank you. You will never know how much it lifted me up.

For those of you who didn't, just know it was, to say the least, a rough day. 

And in the end, in a way, it was a day that needed to happen.  It needed to happen in order to get me headed in the right direction.  For as blessed as I am, there was a battle I was - and am- and always will be-  fighting everyday. A battle I was fighting with myself, one I didn't understand. A battle that just didn't feel right but also wouldn't stop. 

A week and a day later, there have been some changes. I have spent time with people who know how to help me get back to ME.  I already knew I had an amazing husband, and today that fact is simply more solid. I will never be able to put into words how much I love that man. Which I guess is part of the point - not saying it but showing it, right? 

I already knew I had a supportive family, and today that fact, also, is simply more solid.  I knew I had some good friends, but I didn't realize just how good they are and just how much they care about me. And as for a support system from my employer, wow. I will never be able to convey to my readers how amazing some of my colleagues are; there is simply no better place to work.

From here I move forward. Which is not to say I won't remember the past, for that is what has made me me, for that is what I take and make better, for that is what teaches us lessons.  But from here I move forward.  I have an army with me keeping me in the right direction, and for that, I will be eternally grateful. 

Stay strong, stay positive.

And I promise next time you come back, I'll have some goofy story to share about me or Mini. 

And, of course, Happy Halloween. :)

diary of Mini Comments.

Since we call this awesome blog "Mini Me Says" ... it occurs to me I should be better about posting Mini's more-hilarious-every-day-comments...

on the drive home from school yesterday.. me asking questions about her day.. her telling me some whacked out story about why she made a mask in spanish class..

me: oh really? 
eileen: yep. thats how it went down Mommy. 

Eileen. That gangsta in tights and the plaid uniform. Thats how it goes down in Kindergarten Land. 

Streams of Consciousness...

I took this photo a couple of weeks ago... not really much to say about it other than I giggle when I see it. 

I went to bed at 8:45 last night. I mean really! Apparently I needed the sleep, bc I slept solid until this morning. It wasn't intentional. I mean that early bedtime.  I laid down with Eileen when I'd put HER to bed. And it seems I passed out cold. Bill came up to get me around 9:15, and I was in a dead sleep.

That happens now and again, that I fall asleep up there with her. But usually then I come back downstairs and read or watch TV or play on the iPad. Last night though I came down and crawled straight into bed. I'm old. 

Speaking of old.. spend a minute on the iTunes home page. If you have heard of any of the featured bands, you are not old. If, like me, you stare dumbfounded at the screen, you are old. 

<-- Eileen. Mammoth Bunny. Waving hi to Grandpa & Beanie. That bunny used to sit on their front walk during Easter. At some point it made it's way across the state. Eileen loves to carry it around and hang out with it. It's at least a head taller than her. 

---> k. see this one here of my legs. Does anyone else do this? It was some morning last week. Bill had already left for work, Eileen was at school. I had this boot conundrum. Which one to wear?!  Gracie was no help. So yes. I took a picture of my feet and sent it to a small group of fashionably smart and brutally honest people to please choose my footwear for the day. All responded almost immediately. I'm not telling you which one they picked. Lets see how many of you are reading my ramblings. YOU pick. Which one do you prefer? 

This one I posted on FB late last week. It got lots of action. I posted it asking if other people's dining room tables looked as lovely as mine. Buried deep under the mail and computers and homework is a table runner. Solid evidence at an attempt at decorating. But more often than not it looks more like this picture than a spread from Real Simple. But - despite the clutter- a major pet peeve of mine- this picture makes me happy. It's a table in a home, where people sit and talk and eat and do work and play and just gather. It's my little Mini doing her homework while I get some work done. It's Mommy getting to hang out with kiddo even tho we're both  busy. And, based on the comments and 'likes' on FB.. a lot of other people's dining room tables look like this more often than not. YAY! 

---> Do you know these people?? I am fairly certain it is my sister and brother-in-law.  People. This is a case where life is just TOO BUSY.  Sissy and I live in the same town. WE WORK AT THE SAME PLACE. We have seen each other one time in a month - and that was for five minutes at the gym. Between David being in school, me and Sissy with alternating travel schedules, social commitments and stuff with Eileen - I realized last night that it is a very real possibility we may not be in town at the same time until December. Not even for Thanksgiving!  Seems crazy doesn't it? We'll always have texting. :)

Ok. I daresay this post matches it's title. Welcome to my rambling constantly running brain. Scary in here? Fun? Bizarre? Yes. All of the above.

Cheers!